When I was young, I thought I was just as straight as the other girls I worked with at London escorts. It was not until I had left London escorts that I became uncertain about my sexuality. I simply did not feel sure about my sexuality anymore. As I started to explore my feelings, I discovered that I was not the only woman in my age group who felt uncertain about her sexuality. Some of the ladies I met had even been married and had children with their partners. All of a sudden, I felt like I was thrown in a black hole.
At first, I became very depressed. After a long career with London escorts, I felt that I wanted to have a proper relationship with a man. It was something that I had not really experienced. In many ways I felt that I had missed out on real love during my career with charlotte action escorts. It was really my own responsibility – I had in fact on many occasions put personal relationships on hold. Even relationships with girlfriends were few and far in between when I worked for London escorts.
I am not going to say that I think that London escorts are bitchy, but our relationships with each other did leave a lot to be desired. Many London escorts were jealous of each other and did avoid each other company. That was very much what I did, and I realise now that I never had a positive relationship with either a man or woman. I spent a lot of time on my own, and the only people I communicated with at length were the men I dated at London escorts. It really did not do a lot for my personal mental health.
When I left London escorts, I spent rather a long time trying to reinvent myself. I wanted to let go of my sex kitten image. That was easier said than done. I simply did not know who I was anymore. Little by little I started to change my image and it meant dressing differently. To my surprise, I realised that I was as happy in a pair of low heeled shoes as I was in my high heeled boots. I don’t know what happened, but I did feel that I had been showing off too much of my body at London escorts. It was during this time my interests started to change.
I had never thought about doing ceramics before, but for some reason, I felt drawn towards doing a craft. When I worked for London escorts, I never used to have the time to follow up any hobbies. Sure, there were things I wanted to do, but I never go anywhere. It was in ceramics class I met Sue. She was a very outspoken lady but friendly at the same time. Before I knew it we became friends, and one night, we became more than friends. It felt a bit like coming home, and I was finally able to experience both real friendship and love for the first time in my life. I also realised how important companionship is to the human soul.